YEARNING

what i am i yearning for??  actually, multitudes of things.  but the title of this entry is my need for home based internet.  i found out that the system has been down for several months, which was a relief, since i thought it might be the adaptor i bought.  i also found out that the system is allegedly back in full swing again.............but i am still not getting anything.  no wifi signal at all from the city wifi.  i get the signal from a neighbor's wifi, as well as the local Baptist church, but not the one i can actually access.  grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  i want to get my website up and running and eventually start up a home based business once again.  i miss having those deposits, though often small, in my paypal account, lol.

i had a distressing day at work this past week.  as i reported a few entries ago, i got my raise for this year, even though it didn't make a dent in my overall pay.  but i still haven't gotten my very first raise from 4 years ago.  my assistant manager called me into the office this week and did my evaluation.  it has to be done yearly, even though the yearly raise is now automatic.  during the evaluation, i wasn't given a copy of the report to read along with.  he touched points that he felt needed work, and then stressed my strong points.  it wasn't until i got a copy and took it home to read that i noticed there were several inaccuracies.  i was accused of things i have no control over.  but since i was an idiot and signed the paper without actually reading it first, i have little recourse.

later, the general manager walked past my station and i asked him if he had any word on my other raise.  he grimaced, then proceeded to get hostile with me, saying that was already a done deal and he wasn't going to discuss it with me anymore.  i told him all i did was ask, and that i was entitled to my raise.  i was then called into the office again, and this time the general manager, who was obviously having a bad day, began to belittle me and went into a tirade about the raise.  when i tried to interject a response, he closed the office door and began another tirade on how i never listen and don't know when to keep my mouth shut.  i waited till he finished his little fit and then i told him i was entitled to my raise, and it didn't matter if i had waited a few weeks to ask him about it again, i had been trying to get the raise since dec. 1, 2003.  he eventually calmed down and we had a fairly decent discussion.  he said he thought it had all been resolved and that i had received the raise, and i told him no, that is why every few months i come back to him with it.  he said i should have gone over his head and contacted the hr dept.  ok, now most general managers would tell you that you are not supposed to go over them, that they are the ones who handle everything.  either way, i am going to the labor board on my next week day off.  hopefully they can get some action on this.  loosely figuring it up, the company owes me around $700-$800 in back pay, but i won't ever see that.  i just want to see that original raise in my paycheck.  ggrrrrrrrrr.

no word from the daughter.  i haven't tried to call her, trying to give her some time to cool off.  her birthday will be coming up in december, so i guess i will at least hear from her then.

the kitties are around still, but as before, their appearance is sporadic.  i am still feeding on a 3 day a week basis.

i don't remember if i mentioned it before, but i found out that my house mate is possibly an alcoholic.  she admitted to drinking, and from her actions sometimes, i am sure she does it to excess.  that worries me since she is also a smoker.  she had a meeting with our "lovely" landlord the other day about her rent.  i spoke to her today on my way out, and she said it went well.  he is going to let her pay late.  she also asked me to check on the cost of artist's acrylics at my workplace.  she wants to start painting again.  i have never seen any evidence of her work, and when i asked her to see some, she said she was a graphic artist.  sigh..........so confusing.

i went to the salvation army store this week and worked a little and hung out with my new friends there.  it might have been a mistake, though, lol.  i found some things i needed to buy.  i bought a room air purifier with ionizer and filters for $5.  i also found a nice shirt to wear to work, and Polly sold it to me cheaper than the price.  that woman, lol.  i also bought a sturdy glass dome for $1 to put one of my collectibles in.  we sell those at my workplace for over $5 and they are the really thin glass.  i also got some yarn they had saved back for me.........for free.   they invited me to eat lunch with them, so i had some good old home made beef stew and home made pineapple cake.

one of my managers at work has been bringing me yarn she found in her attic.  she doesn't have the patience to knit or crochet anymore.  she thought she had gotten it all, but she found 2 more huge bags full.  and there is enough to make a nice afghan out of this batch.  a customer told me she would bring me all her leftover yarn as well.  i hope she does.  and then my fes, val, brought me a huge bag of her leftovers.  i am having a blast with the yarn, but need to be working on my jewelry.

florence, the customer/friend who i have done a couple of craft festivals with and who loaned me some money awhile back, came by the store to tell me she signed up for a festival on october 20 and asked if i wanted to go in with her and her friend barbara.  barbara is a little on the obnoxious side, but i think i could tolerate her for a day.  they have already paid for the booth and said i could chip in or not, it didn't matter.  i might take a small selection of items from each category i work in.  an afghan, a couple of neck scarves, hats, necklaces, bracelets, hand made cards.  i hope to do the church festival that month as well.  so i have to have enough stuff to cover both festivals.  i have to get to work, lol.

i have about 10 minutes left on my time here at this computer, so better go read a few of your journals.  i need to get caught up. 

have a great weekend..........................