A REAL STORY OF LIFE AND LOVE PART TWO

Raven still didn’t know what to do about Eros. She still loved him, but knew they would never have a real life together. There had been too many broken promises, too many sleepless nights. She was no longer “in love” with him. Mark’s heart and soul must have sensed Raven’s dilemma for that very night he asked her to marry him over the phone. He apologized for not waiting until he was there in October to do it in person, but stated he was a very impatient person, and thought waiting for two years was long enough. Raven accepted immediately, knowing in her heart that she would almost destroy another man in doing so. Mark could not wait to announce to the world that he was to wed Raven, so Raven did not have the chance to speak to Eros beforehand. Thus Eros found out in a way that must have been devastating. Raven tried to talk to him online, explain what she had been experiencing emotionally, but he only stated he would never stop loving her, and would never move on. Raven felt so much compassion for this man she had spent almost five years knowing and loving, she spent the entire Easter weekend (three days) crying hysterically. Mark hated what this was doing to Raven, the woman he loved. Because Mark could not do anything about what was happening in Raven’s world except be emotionally supportive, he became angry with the source of the pain…. Eros. He wanted to somehow hurt this man who was causing his beloved Raven so much pain and anguish. He wanted to hurt him the way Raven was hurt.

Raven came through the three days of anguish as if it were a period of withdrawal from a narcotic. She felt drained, weak, tired and emotionless. But after a few days she felt much better, and knew her broken heart was on the mend. Mark saw her three days of pain and how she was beginning to mend. He realized he was wrong for wanting to hurt Eros. He tried on several occasions to compliment Eros on his literary accomplishments and to give him some encouragement, but his efforts were thwarted and misunderstood. Eros, who was fighting his own emotional pain, misunderstood and attacked Mark openly online. Mark, trying to defend his own honor, as well as his beloved Raven’s, struck back. Their “duel” brought to mind the days in which men drew pistols and walked 100 paces, then turned and fired at each other. Thank goodness today they are only word bullets, or one or even possibly two good men would be very dead.

Raven heard about what Mark and Eros had been doing and chastised Mark for being childish. Raven was both angered and saddened by the way both had acted. She no longer had any say about Eros’s behavior, but let Mark know that she was not pleased with his actions. Mark then promised Raven that he would never attempt any more contact with Eros or any of his “friends”.

Raven and Mark are currently working things out and planning their future together. Though Raven cannot speak directly for Mark, she is sure he agrees with her in that she wants only the best future for Eros and those involved in Eros’s life. Raven does still remember Eros as a kind, loving, passionate man and will always hold his memory dear. But she also wishes Eros would heal, physically and emotionally, and move on with his life………..find happiness again. Raven does not hold any grudges against any of the parties involved in her relationship with Eros and hopes that they do not either. And if they do, hopes and prays they will all find true happiness and move forward with their lives as well.

Well, I hope this little story will straighten some things out and hopefully a few out there enjoyed the story of love and broken hearts. The sad thing is…………..it is real.

May all who happen by my journal have a happy and fulfilling life and always remember….life is way too short to spend it in anger or grief.

My love to all of you out there in aol land.

Gayle Regina Watkins, a/k/a raygaen (the future MRS. MICHAEL S. PATRICIA)