Thursday, March 29, 2007

SUCCESS.........SORTA

for all of you out there that have witnessed my total frustration with this wireless thing.....i have some news........not overwhelmingly good news, but news.

i went to bed this morning at 3:30 am.  i was snuggled in and suddenly heard something tinkling.........like a wind chime.  i sat up, looked around in the darkness (not very smart, i know) but there were no obvious reasons for the sound.  then i heard something else.  i got up and went over to the computer and touched the mouse to bring the dinosaur out of hibernation, and voila, i had internet access.  years ago, before putting my puter in storage, i had set my greeting to arnold the governator.  he says "where have you been?" when you open aol.  there, in his deep, accented voice, was the governator himself, arnold, asking me where i had been.  i was so overjoyed, that i actually answered him, lol.  i was able to access my aol and read some mail, and even write an email to a friend..............but as i hit the send button...........i lost my connection.

sigh...............

so, i figure that the problem is the strength in signal or possibly interference from trees, other radio signals, etc.  i am going to try again tonight and put the wireless adaptor closer to the window and in better view of the signal origin.  i mean, the water tower is the tallest thing in town, and you can see it from my bedroom.........so i don't understand why it wouldn't be strong enough.  but then, it is also possible that the company that is setting up this wireless system is still working out flaws.  they are supposed to have the project completed in two years.  it has only been one and a half so far.

though fleeting, i felt victory.....................WOOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DREAMS

we all have our dreams.  some are more realistic than others, but we all have the opportunity to make these dreams come true.  often, life itself intervenes in our well-made plans of making our dreams come true. 

the young photographer that i have featured before here in my journal, and would like to feature again, has come to a roadblock in making his dream come true.  this man is a truly talented photographer, but due to many obstacles, has had to put his photography on a back burner.  i admire this man very much for knowing his priorities in life.  but i also feel badly that his pursuit of happiness in his photography has had to fall back several paces. 

this young man has a fantastic gallery.  and most of his work is for sale.  he also offers numerous other things relating to his photography.

visit greg's site.  sit a spell.  enjoy the beautiful work.  then.........contact him, let him know what you think, and if you feel the need to purchase something he has to offer, then please do so.  the visit will be well worth your time, believe me.  he is truly talented.

thank each and every one of you for letting me share greg's work with you. 

Four Forty-Six Photography (an online photo gallery of my work -- updated 03-15-2007)
Photo Trek (My photo journal)
The Call of the Waterfall (My waterfall directory)

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

JUST A NOTE...........

I never was able to get connected to the internet.........I have the signal.......but no connection..............so.......I just disconnected that little flashing blue light until I can find out how to connect.  But in the meantime, anyone out there that has ideas or knows someone who might be able to help.............please email me..........

WUMZELS2@AOL.COM

thanks

ARE THEY PHASING ME OUT??

as i mentioned in my previous entry, i was off for 4 days in a row last week.  well, i am currently on my first day of another 4 days in a row off.  i don't understand this.  i realize that from time to time management has to cut everyone's hours, but i cannot survive on 13 hours a week.  there are young people that "work" there that are not carrying their load, but yet they appear to be "phasing me out".  am i being paranoid???  i really don't think i am.  but they are trying to "phase out" the new framer, who had to sit with the textbook open and computer on to pass her certification in the framing dept.  she is nasty to some of the customers and never gets her work done on time. 

i reported the new assistant manager and two young employees for sitting in the office for over 45 minutes just talking........about nothing...........while i was the only one on the floor.  i had customers lined up, there were items that needed to be returned to the sales floor, and they were having a relaxing hour in the office.  last night i worked with the same crew, and it was really different, so maybe something was said to them.  and they don't know it was me that reported them, for they were all very nice to me last night.  i think they think it was the new framer girl.............she didn't like it that night either that they were shirking their responsibilities, so she went into the office and cussed them out.  it was the first time i have every agreed with her on anything...........they deserved a tongue lashing.

i have always been afraid to say anything about anyone else to management due to what you see all the time on the news.........fired due to tattling........fired for speaking out.......whistleblower let go.........etc.  i cannot afford to lose my job. 

ok, i have vented some..........i feel better.  now to pull up and print a copy or two of my resume for faxing to prospective jobs. 

HOW COULD I EVER DOUBT HIM?

how often we get bound up in our own earthly worlds, and forget that GOD IS IN CHARGE.  all we really have to do is believe and turn it over to Him. 

after my tire incident, i thought i was fine.  the last thing i need to worry about is having car problems.  that is the only thing that gets me to the meager job i have.  but as life is always full of little "incidents", another occurred.  a couple of weeks ago i started rolling my window down some instead of turning on the fan or air conditioning.  i noticed the smell of antifreeze.  i checked the temperature gauge, and it was at the same position as always..........so i didn't think anything more about it. 

a couple more times i smelled the antifreeze, but still the gauge was ok.  since i was off for four days last week, i thought it would be a good time to check my car.  i turned on the air conditioner, and nothing happened.  the air never cooled, and i never heard the familiar "thud" of the air conditioning coming on.  so i checked the belts, and they all looked fine.  i live in an area where there are a lot of squirrels, and i figured maybe chip 'n dale had chewed through something.  then i noticed that the two large fans that cool the radiator were not working.  i thumped, pulled, prodded........nothing.  ok, so that means that my radiator could overheat.  i couldn't have anything done at that point, and since it was so late, i decided to go ahead and drive to work on monday and just keep an eye on the gauge. 

i made it through monday just fine.  today (tuesday) i took my car by my usual auto place and asked them if they could tell me what might be wrong, but that i didn't have the money to fix anything today.  he got a mechanic to look at it, and he came back in about 10 minutes and told me he unplugged the fan and dusted it off, then replugged it, and now they are working fine.  so maybe the jiggling of my bad old tires made it come undone, or chip 'n dale were at work, lol.  either way, it works now.  the air still doesn't work, but he said that was because there was no freon in there. 

i asked them how much i owed them and the guy behind the counter said nothing.  i asked if the guys in the shop can take tips, and he said yes, so i dug out my last $4 and told him it wasn't much, but i wanted him to have it.  he took it out to him.

so...............you see..............i remembered last night, as i lay in bed trying to go to sleep, that God is in control.  i asked God to please let them find something minor wrong with my car and that the money to fix it would come my way.  God, in His infinite wisdom, had the car fixed for the minimal fee of $4.  THANK YOU GOD!!!!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

LAST DITCH EFFORT

ok, this is my last plea for help online.................

IF THERE IS ANYONE, I MEAN ANYONE, OUT THERE, THAT TRULY UNDERSTANDS HOW TO MAKE YOUR HOME PC ACCEPT WIFI WITH THE USE OF A WIRELESS-G USB ADAPTOR, PLEASE, I MEAN PLEASE, CONTACT ME VIA EMAIL AT:

WUMZELS2@AOL.COM

i briefly had a viable connection last night, for about 20 seconds.  my msn and yahoo messengers were both able to sign on..........but then "POOF" they were gone.

SIGH.....................

ANOTHER MISERABLE DAY IN THE LIFE...........

i just finished typing six large paragraphs about my horribly miserable tuesday, and the mouse quit working and fell apart, and fell on the puter which wiped the whole thing out.....................so, in short, this is what happened on tuesday after i left the library.......

 

ok, after i left the library, i went to the post office.  i noticed something weird happening with my car.  when i came back out of the post office, i noticed my "donut" tire was flat.

now, i have really pushed that poor tire to its limits.  it is supposed to be used only in cases of emergencies.  well, i have driven on it for the last 1-1/2 months.  i have driven on the expressway, at rates of 60-80 mph.  i have really abused the little "donut".  it finally struck back..........

it was almost 5 pm, and the post office would be closed.  so i went in and asked if anyone there could help me.  they didn't get off till 6 pm, but one of my friends there said she would take me home or to a service station.  i told her my regular tire place would be closed by then.  then, a customer overheard me and said there was a tire store right up the road about a mile.  i had lived in the town for about 20 years but had forgotten about the place.  i had had dealings with the man before, and didn't like him.  he wasn't honest.  but i had no choice.

i started walking to the tire place and found out it was a mile and a half up the road.  i was out of breath when i got there but was glad they were still open.  the owner's wife checked to see if there was a used tire my size in the shop.  there was, and she told me it would be $35 to purchase, mount and balance.  not bad.  but then there would be a charge for road service. 

i waited over an hour, and my car was ready.  it had a really nice used tire on it.  it set me back $72.50, but well worth it.  fortunately i had just cashed my paycheck.  it was money earmarked for rent and utilities, but you have to do what you have to do.

but i thank God for keeping me safe.  i could have been doing 80 on the expressway when the "donut" blew.  then i would have been a highway mess. 

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

STILL WANDERING IN THE DESERT...........

well, i have tried every button on my computer.  i have entered into lands i probably shouldn't have.  still..........no connection to the internet.  i have a good wifi signal, just don't know what i am doing or not doing to get access to the internet.  as greg suggested, i went in and made internet explorer my default access.  sitll nothing.  i went by a friend's work today on the way here and he suggested that i try going back in and changing something.  so, off i go to try something new............sigh............

why is it that people think the library is a playground??  i have these three idiots sitting next to me making all kinds of noise.  i come here to write, and to read my emails and try to do some research, but they are allowed to sit and make noise and use their cell phone, etc.  I FRICKIN GIVE UP..............

well, i cannot handle this annoyance, so better get out of here before i say or do something i will regret.  it is a shame that i cannot enjoy working here at the library.

hope everyone has a great day.................HAPPY SPRING TO ALL!!!

Saturday, March 17, 2007

IRISH BLESSINGS

SINCE I AM OF IRISH BACKGROUND, I CAN HONESTLY SAY:

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S

              DAY

       

(FOR THOSE WHO CANNOT SEE THE ABOVE WISH, I HAVE REPRINTED IT)

May the road rise up to meet you.

May the wind always be at your back.

The sun shine warm upon your face.

The rain fall soft upon your fields.

And until we meet again..........

MAY GOD HOLD YOU IN THE HOLLOW OF HIS HAND!

               

A FOOTNOTE........

i just contacted AOL live support............and guess what i found out..............aol does not support wifi connections..............OH GREAT!!!  so i guess i need to contact Yahoo and see if i can connect through them............sheesh....................after all this complicated mess...........and i still have to come to the library to access my AOHe**. 

MORE CONNECTION DRAMA

update on the connection to the internet drama...................

after i left the library where becky helped me load my flash drive, i went home to try it out.  my computer told me that before it could read the drive, it had to have updates.  ok, i clicked on windows updates, and it told me that it wasn't available offline.  grrrrrr.  so................i picked up an empty floppy disk and went to another library, not far from my house.  i don't like that library as well.  but i was glad i went.  the computer librarian told me that she didn't think what i needed to download was going to fit on a floppy.  but she wasn't sure, so she went to get richard.............yea for richard!!!  at first he told me that he doubted it would all fit on a floppy.  but after i pulled up what i needed from the windows site to download, richard noticed it was a small file, and said it would fit on the disk.  so.................i downloaded to the disk, went back home............it worked.  at least the update did.  but i still didn't have access to the internet.  WHAT WAS I DOING WRONG??!!

after a few hours of frustration, i finally decided to take a giant step backward.........i completely un-installed the wireless-g adaptor.  then i re-installed it.  and this time the installation process went further than it did before.  and it actually brought up a screen that tells me how well i am connected, the name of the connection, and where the connection is coming from.  momentarily i was even connected to the internet through msn AND yahoo..............then lost them both.  i haven't been successful in actually getting online since.  i have the signal............but for some reason i cannot access the internet.  if there is anyone out there that has any good suggestions, PLEASE HELP!

i previously had dial up on my computer, but was told when i installed the wireless adaptor that my computer would automatically change to wireless.  i just don't know what i am doing wrong.............but at least i have accomplished something............

if i had the money i would call the GEEK SQUAD.  but for now, i will try to figure it out on my own..........with suggestions from you guys and gals............

Thursday, March 15, 2007

STEP 1,124,429

first............THANK YOU BECKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok........i went yesterday and bought a flash drive with 1 gb of space.  it was on sale at radio shack (thank goodness) for $20.  i am here at the library now, and had becky, an old friend of my daughter's who works here, download the installation cd for my wireless-g adaptor to the flash drive.  so far success.  now.........i have to go back home and plug this booger in to see if i can install my wireless adaptor.  and hopefully, once installed, i will have wireless access at my house, and won't have to make this long trek to use a computer for internet access.  due to my usual streaks of bad luck, i am not holding my breath over this...........i just hope it works.  it is nickel and diming me to death.  after all is said and done, i could have bought a whole new computer with wireless built in, lol.

man am i full.............every time i come to this particular library, i eat at captain d's which they built nearby about 3 months ago.  i love the regular fish platter, which has two pieces of regular fish and two hush puppies, along with fries.  i seldom eat the fries, but love the fish and puppies.  mostly the fish is nothing more than tons of batter with little pieces of fish somewhere inside, but i love to pour that vinegar on it and cover it with tartar sauce.  i can feel my arteries closing as we speak...........

ok, in a few i am off to try becoming wireless..........................

(thank you to everyone who still reads my ramblings and makes an occasional comment.  it means so much..............and jeannette.......my prayers and thoughts are with you my dear friend)

 

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

FULL

i had planned on getting up early again to hit the grocery store and see if i could get some good deals on chicken breasts and some other meats.  but when the alarm went off this morning at 8 am, i crawled out of the bed, went to the kitchen and checked the freezer, and arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........no room.  it is crammed full of meats from the last trip, and frozen veggies.  so i went back to bed, lol.  i slept another four hours and then went to the drug store...............that is a story in and of itself:

i use a locally owned drug store for my prescription pharmaceuticals.  i am not crazy about the chain of stores, but it is a member of the "free" drug program i use through the Hands of Hope Clinic.  the owner is a mean nasty old fart who yells out orders to the younger people working there like a drill sargeant.  he doesn't usually work out front, but today, and on several other occasions, he has covered for a pharmacist who is on lunch.  most everyone who works there is related in one way or another.....except woody, my pharmacist from years back, who transferred  here when his other pharmacy closed.

ok, i won't go into all the problems i have had in the past with this pharmacy, just today.  a week ago i went by the pharmacy and dropped off my request for refills.  i asked for a 90 day amount, which is required by the program i am a member of.  i told them i would be back on thursday to pick them up.  well, thursday came and went and i was too busy to stop by, so didn't get back over till today.  a whole week later.  i went up and told them my name and she got the prescriptions out of the large conveyer, and told me that they were 60 pills short on one of the prescriptions.  but she figured they would have them in now, so would get them to fill the order while i waited.  an hour and 10 minutes later, i still didn't have my 60 pills.  i was getting weak from not having eaten before leaving home, and was starting to shake.  i told her i would have to come back after i went to eat.  she said to hold on, that all they had to do was count the pills.  another 10 minutes..........nothing.  i went back up and told her to forget it, i was leaving.  she then went over and told woody what was going on, and in a minute i had my pills.  by the time i got to the captain d's to eat, i was a mess.  after eating i felt a whole world better.  now i can take on the world, lol. 

pharmacies frighten me.  i have had some horrible things happen to me at pharmacies.  i had one pharmacist, old and didn't need to be working, filled my prescription with the wrong medication.  when i opened it at home that night to take one, i noticed it was not the same.  i didn't take it and the next day i went back in.  do you know what he had the nerve to tell me???????????????  that he didn't make mistakes, that i had taken the bottle home and put different pills in the bottle and brought it back to get him in trouble and to get more pills for free..............i reported him immediately to the better business bureau, the pharmaceutical association and the home office.  a week later i went in and he wasn't there.  i asked around................they fired him............wooo hoooo!!!!!!!!!

when i was raising my daughter alone, i was on medicaid.  there was a particular pharmacist that had no respect for people on welfare or public assistance of any kind.  my doctor's office had called in a prescript for my daughter and the next day i went in to get it.  he said it wasn't on file.  someone else checked it and found the order, but it hadn't been filled.  i asked if he could fill it then, as i had a neighbor watching my daughter, who was very ill and needed the meds immediately.  he said i would have to wait till he got all the other prescripts filled.  i told him my doctor called it in the day before, and that it was supposed to be ready.  he said the doctor never called it in till that morning, but the other clerk had told me that the order came in the day before at 12:18 pm, which is right after i had called the doctor.  then i heard something i never would have dreamed i would hear..............the pharmacist muttered under his breath the words "white trash come in here demanding stuff" and i heard him.  i asked him to repeat that loud enough that everyone could hear.  he said he didn't say anything.  the clerk looked at him, then at me, and said they heard him say it too.  he finished filling my prescript and came around to the counter and had a clip board in his hand with a log i had to sign since it was going to be paid for by medicaid.  he THREW the clipboard at me and made another comment about medicaid people.  he hit me in the stomach with the clipboard, so i picked it up and threw it back at him, hitting him in the chest.  i told him that i was a human being with a sick child and i deserved to be respected, and i would sign it when he handed it to me like a decent person would do.  he grumbled something and layed it down on the counter and walked off.  i signed it, asked the clerk what the pharmacist's name was, since he didn't have on a name tag, and went home, called the proper authorities, and a couple of weeks later i found out that he not only was fired, but after the clerk was witness against him, he actually lost his license.  not sure if he lost it for good or if it was just suspended, but either way, justice was served.  i guess i wasn't the only person that he did that to..........since there are so many of us "white trash medicaid recipients" in this world.

ok, i have vented over my interaction with pharmacists........so i will let your poor eyes rest for now.  have a blessed day...............

TOTAL FRUSTRATION..............

i have been sitting here typing for over 30 minutes and suddenly there was a glitch in the system, and  boom...............every word is missing............so, i am not going to sit here another 30 minutes and type it all over.................i will just say this............

i had someone come out to check out my cd drive on my computer and they tell me it is kapootz.  so.............i am going to buy a jump drive and download what i need and go from there.  i cannot afford a new dvd/cd drive right now. 

back to the drawing board........................sigh.......................

 

Thursday, March 8, 2007

TOO EARLY FOR GROCERIES

ocassionally i get up early on a day off and go to the grocery store in the small town where i used to live.  they have great mark-downs on meats and fresh salad greens that are marked to expire on that day.  since i usually don't get up till a couple of hours before work (around 1 pm), getting up at 8 am is tough..........but somehow i manage to do so at least once a month, lol.

today i even got there a little too early..........the meat packagers were sleeping in today i guess, since they didn't get anything out till around 9:20 am.  but i did get some great deals.  i got 6 packages of 90% lean ground beef that were originally $4-$5 a package for $1.50 a package.  i got 2 packages of boneless pork steaks that were usually $4.89 each for $1 a package.  and then i got a great big t-bone steak with a small bone and lots of meat that was regularly $8.76 for $4.  we are meat eaters at our house..............

i was hoping to get some chicken on special, but no go.  i did get 3 half gallons of 2% milk for 69 cents a jug.  it is usually $1.89 i believe. 

now i have to get those groceries home before they ruin.  the temp has risen a lot lately here, and i don't want anything to spoil.  so i will bid a farewell for now..................

THE SON

whether a reader is a Christian or not, i figured everyone could enjoy this.  it has been circulating around the email circuit for a couple of years or so, but is always worth repeating.  thanks Rose for sending it my way again........................

 

MY  SON
 
A wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art. They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael. They would often sit together and admire the great works of art.
 
 
When the Vietnam conflict broke out, the son went to war. He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier. The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.
 
 
About a month later, just before Christmas, there was a knock at the door. A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands.
 
 
He said, "Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly. He often talked about you, and your love for art." The young man held out this package. "I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this."
 
 
The father opened the package. It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man. He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting. The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture. "Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift."
 
 
The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.
 
 
The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection..
 
 
On the platform sat the painting of the son. The auctioneer pounded his gavel. "We will start the bidding with this picture of the son. Who will bid for this picture?"
 
 
There was silence.
 
 
Then a voice in the back of the room shouted, "We want to see the famous paintings. Skip this one."
 
But the auctioneer persisted. "Will somebody bid for this painting. Who will start the bidding? $100, $200?"
 
 
Another voice angrily. "We didn't come to see this painting. We came to see the Van Goghs, the Rembrandts. Get on with the real bids!"
 
 
But still the auctioneer continued. "The son! The son! Who'll take the son?"
 
 
Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. "I'll give $10 for the painting." Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.
 
 
"We have $10, who will bid $20?"
 
 
"Give it to him for $10. Let's see the masters."
 
 
"$10 is the bid, won't someone bid $20?"
 
 
The crowd was becoming angry. They didn't want the picture of the son.
 
 
They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections.
 
 
The auctioneer pounded the gavel. "Going once, twice, SOLD for $10!"
 
 
A man sitting on the second row shouted, "Now let's get on with the collection!"
 
 
The auctioneer laid down his gavel. "I'm sorry, the auction is over."
 
 
"What about the paintings?"
 
 
"I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings.
 
 
The man who took the son gets everything!"
 
 
God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross. Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: "The son, the son, who'll take the son?"
 
 
Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything.
 
 
FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE ! HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH, SHALL HAVE ETERNAL

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

WATER MYSTERY

well the water mystery has been solved.  the day after i discovered my problem, i wrote a letter to my landlord and took it by the city hall and left it with his secretary.  it just asked him to check into my not having any hot water in my bathroom. 

the next morning as i was crossing through the landing to get to the kitchen, i noticed what looked like a note tacked up on the front door.  i went down and retrieved it, and it was from the caretaker.  he was apologizing for shutting off my water.  he and the man who is helping him remodel the downstairs bathroom shut it off for 10 minutes to fix something down there, and forgot to turn it back on, lol.  he said in the note he would never ever do that again, lol.  i hope not, lol.

of course, being an old house, when the water was turned back on, there was a lot of gunk in it.  rust, and who knows what else.  after it ran clear i took my shower.  i don't need a rusty glow.......lol.

so, the great mystery of 2007 has been solved....................

SADNESS

though my last entry was a bit on the up side, this one may not be.  i must relate what occurred at my job yesterday.  it really touched me in a way that will not be long forgotten.

yesterday was a day of sadness........one of my regular customers, a lady who reminds me of the Hallmark card character, Maxine, was in a very dismal mood when she came in.  i tried to joke with her and she told me, through tears, that her sister had just passed on the day before, and she was on her way there to find out what happened and to help make the arrangements.  i hugged her and held her while she sobbed. 

then later in the evening a couple came to my register, possibly in their upper twenties to early thirties.  the man was joking about needing to use our bathroom if we had one, so i pointed the way and began conversing with the woman, who seemed "drugged".  she was buying a small toychest made of wood in the shape of a child's alphabet block.  i was joking with her about it being a gift for her husband, and she softly uttered the most horrible words............IT IS A MEMORY CHEST FOR MY SON, WHO PASSED AWAY THIS PAST WEDNESDAY.  i couldn't believe my ears.  tears welled up in my eyes and i asked her how old he was, and what happened.  he was 3-1/2 years old, and died due to complications of a surgery he had several months ago.  as i spoke to her, she would sometimes smile when she spoke of him, and other times she would cloud up and start to cry.  i was overcome with emotion, so walked around to her side of the counter and gave her a big hug.  she was very receptive, and thanked me.  i held her hand while we waited for the receipt to come out of the register, and she gathered her things and walked away. 

a short while later her husband came back up from the restroom, and he had gathered a few more things to purchase for the memory box, as well as for a daughter they had that was 2 years old.  since my register had several customers, he went over to another register.  as i finished up my last customer, i walked over to him, told him his wife had told me about their son, and offered my condolences.  he grabbed me and hugged me and thanked me for caring.  i told both of them that i would keep them in my prayers, but that to remember the best memory box they both had was inside of them.......their memories, and their heart.

there were so many times when i wanted to strangle my daughter as she was growing up.  of course, i never would have........but this brings to light so much........we never can love our children enough.  i look back now and wish that all the times that i told her to go play in her room because i was busy cooking or cleaning or something, that i had hugged her, and let her help me, or at least sit there with me while i finished what i was doing.  i can never retrieve those minutes lost...........but at least i still have my child.  she is 21 now, and lives elsewhere, but she will always be my baby..........and i will treasure every moment spent with her from now on.

HAVE YOU HUGGED YOUR LOVED ONES TODAY???  please do.

APOLOGY

well it seems i owe some folks an apology.......... so....... I APOLOGIZE!!!!!!  i guess i was in one of my down moods and felt that writing here was useless.  but several have put me straight and have let me know that even if i have but one reader, i must push on, and write...........

thank you to paula, greg, aaron, and "joey" for pointing out that my words do still have worth beyond my own little world. 

may all be blessed....................