A BRIEF HELLO

as usual, i am short on time, since having to come to the library to access the internet.  i want to say hello to the newest commenters and thank you for stopping by my journal.  hopefully soon i will have the time to come here and take my leisure going through everyone's journal. 

i am still working 2 jobs, but hopefully will be giving one up soon.  the craft store has cut my hours to 10 a week (2 days, instead of 3) which defeats my purpose for getting another job.  i had hoped for a full work week.  as soon as my new job accepts my request for 4 days a week instead of 2, i will stay farewell to the other job. 

i have been sleeping quite alot on my off days due to a stupid sinus infection brought on by the crazy weather here in georgia.  we have no clue how to dress here.  when we arrive at work, it is 65 degrees, and when we leave, it is 28 and snowing, lol.

still no word from my daughter.  i pray daily for her to "see the light" before it is too late.  she is a good person, but is just a bit misdirected for now. 

i went by my new job to pick up my paycheck today and ran into my very first housemate, betty.  we had to gossip a little about my current housemate....the invader as i have come to call her.  betty was appalled that she would come up into my apartment without my permission and take food out of my fridge.  oh well, the new housemate got my letter and hasn't spoken to me since, so i guess i "upset" her by telling her to please stay out of MY apartment.  sigh.....................

not much else to report other than i still have 2 of the kitties coming around........gray and rocky.  they got a good meal the other night.........hamburger and pork chops, lol.  they may get tuna casserole tonight, lol.

i am hoping and praying that the government passes the bill to send us all money in may.  i fully plan on putting mine back into the economy.  i plan on buying a brand new home pc.  that is, if we get the amount they say we will.........$500-$600.  coupled with my income tax refund, i should be able to move all my furniture into the apartment (finally) and close out the storage unit, as well as pay for my car tag, pay a month ahead on my rent, and buy a good computer.  then i can do what i need to do from home and won't have to come here to the library with unruly kids, noisy talkers and those using cell phones when not allowed.  my thoughts won't be interrupted unless my cat gets hungry or needs my attention.

as much as i would love to stay and chat, i have to go.  too much to do on my day off.  plus, the weather is supposed to get really bad later today and i don't want to be out in it.  take care everyone......................

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OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

i cannot believe it.  you people are amazing!!!  i want to send out a special thank you to each and every one of you for taking the time to come to my journal and offering me birthday wishes and hope for my relationship with my daughter.  also, thanks to guido and nelishia, and anyone else, who sent all the newbies my way.  i wish you could see me smiling here in the library...............everyone around me things i am up to something, lol.

also, i would love to say "happy birthday" to sybil.  she had a birthday as well.

nothing has changed with the daughter situation, and i slept through most of the evening on my birthday.  but all these well wishes and new acquaintances, which i hope will become friends, made my day today.  thanks to each and every one of you for coming here for me.  this is for you all:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

i am 54 today.......woohoooooo.........i made it!!!!!!!!!!  i am at the library again.  my computer is obviously beyond hope.  i tried opening in safe mode.  i tried going into the opening setup and change some things..........nothing.  i keep getting the blue screen that tells me windows has been shut down to protect my computer.  sigh.  just when i was getting my new website set up and changing some of my old stuff.  oh well, there is a reason for it.

the reason i am tooting my own birthday horn is this:  i have no family and no real friends locally, so if i don't toot it, no one will.......lol.  actually, i am trying to make myself happy, or at least a little less sad.  i had the following happen to me on friday:

as i was working at my salvation army job, i turned around and noticed my daughter standing behind me.  after i finished up with my customer, i went over to hug her and noticed she had been crying.  i asked her what was wrong, and she told me that her paternal grandfather had passed away.  i had always respected the man, even though he and that whole side of the family shut me out after my daughter moved out when she was 17.  i was saddened by the news, especially after having lost 2 online friends recently.  i asked if i could take my break and go and talk with my daughter, and was told i could.  we sat in the break room for about 20 minutes talking about how tom died and the circumstances around his illness and death.  i told my daughter i would like to attend the funeral out of respect for him, if i wasn't working on the day of the funeral.  she told me that the family didn't want me to attend and then she told me she didn't want me there either.  OH MY GOD!!!!  what is wrong with these people??!!  all i want to do is pay my respects to a man i once knew and respected.  i guess they have made up their minds that i am the bad guy since my daughter moved out 5 years ago.  they haven't had anything at all to do with me since the day she moved out.  grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.  after i displayed my angst and hurt at being told not to attend, i asked my daughter if she wanted to walk to my car with me and i would give her her birthday and Christmas presents.  she said, "No, I don't want them."  the hurt began again.  i just don't get it.  i sacrificed 14 years of my life for her, and now this??!!  i give up................

i didn't go to the funeral.  and i have chosen not to send a card either.  or flowers.  i said my peace to God and hopefully, if tom is up there, he heard my words too.

i cried most of the weekend over this, making my eyes red and sandy feeling.  so, that is why i feel i have to wish myself a happy birthday and try to be uplifting to myself and others today.

dang it, i still feel tears welling up.

well, better scoot since i have only 9 more minutes on this library computer.  thanks to all of you for hanging in  there with me.

FRIED

well, my dear j-land friends......i won't be writing much here for awhile.  i fried my computer, i think.  i use windows xp and apparently windows has been shut down to save my system (at least that is what the bright royal blue with white writing screen says).  not sure why, or what i have to do to fix this, as i don't have the money to pay the geek squad to come check it.  sigh.  so, for now, i will be coming back to the library to do my entries, and since gas is up and my time is short, i doubt i will be down here that much. 

if anyone has any hints on what i need to do, you are welcome to comment.  i am going by radio shack today and talk to one of the guys there to see if all i have to do is reload windows xp or something simple.  so keep your fingers crossed.  i was having way too much fun i guess, so my puter cut me off.............sigh.

so all of you out there, hang tough and know you are in my thoughts.