Tuesday, March 29, 2005

WITHOUT YOU

  MICHAEL SENT ME THESE WORDS..........STATING THIS IS HOW HE FEELS ABOUT ME.........WANTED TO SHARE THEM WITH MY AOL JOURNAL FRIENDS..............ENJOY  

MOTLEY CRUE'S "WITHOUT YOU"        

WITHOUT YOU, THERE'S NO CHANGE

MY NIGHTS AND DAYS ARE GREY

IF I REACHED OUT AND TOUCHED THE RAIN

IT JUST WOULDN'T FEEL THE SAME    

WITHOUT YOU, I'D BE LOST

I'D SLIP DOWN FROM THE TOP

I'D SLIDE DOWN SO LOW GIRL

YOU'D NEVER KNOW, NEVER KNOW.....    

WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU

A SAILOR LOST AT SEA

WITHOUT YOU, WOMAN

THE WORLD COMES DOWN ON ME    

WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE

I'D SLOWLY WILT AND DIE

BUT WITH YOU BY MY SIDE

YOU'RE THE REASON I'M ALIVE    

BUT WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU.....    

WITHOUT YOU, MY HOPE IS SMALL

YOU LET ME BE ME ALL ALONG

YOU LET THE FIRES RAGE INSIDE

KNOWING SOMEDAY I'D GROW STRONG    

WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU

A SAILOR LOST AT SEA

WITHOUT YOU, WOMAN

THE WORLD COMES DOWN ON ME    

WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE

I'D SLOWLY WILT AND DIE

BUT WITH YOU BY MY SIDE

YOU'RE THE REASON I'M ALIVE    

BUT WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU...    

I COULD FACE A MOUNTAIN

BUT I COULD NEVER CLIMB ALONE

I COULD START ANOTHER DAY

BUT HOW MANY, I JUST DON'T KNOW    

YOU'RE THE REASON THE SUN SHINES DOWN

AND THE NIGHTS, THEY DON'T GROW COLD

ONLY YOU WILL I HOLD WHEN I'M YOUNG

ONLY YOU....AS WE GROW OLD    

WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE

I'D SLOWLY WILT AND DIE

BUT WITH YOU BY MY SIDE

YOU'RE THE REASON I'M ALIVE

BUT WITH YOU IN MY LIFE

YOU'RE THE REASON I'M ALIVE    

BUT WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOU......................      

Thursday, March 24, 2005

A POEM

i sat for hours, lost in the darkness    

while sleep evaded, kept its distance

love was what i sought, but found it not

or so i thought  

 

betrothed to one, loved by another

lost in love's cloudy deceit

while true love lay just before me

waiting for me to open to it  

 

why do we turn a blind eye and deaf ear

why do we not see the truth before us

like a bright shining sun as we cleave to the darkness,

hoping to see yet we do not  

 

but once my soul's eyes were turned

turned away from the light

i found what i had sought all along

waiting for me, praying i would reach out

and see the truth  

 

true love is not always so obvious

sometimes we are meant to be blinded to it

so that when it is found, it is forever

such is this love..............  

 

 

(FOR MICHAEL)

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

THE ANT

THOUGH MY LIFE IS STILL A DAY-TO-DAY STRUGGLE, I AM BEGINNING TO SEE SOME LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. 

I CURRENTLY RENT A ROOM FROM A DIVORCED WOMAN WITH THREE CHILDREN.  LIVING IN ONE ROOM WITH THREE CATS IS A NOVEL ALL BY ITSELF, LOL. 

I AM STILL WORKING IN THE RETAIL BUSINESS, LONG HOURS BUT FEW DAYS, AND NO PAY INCREASE.  MAKES IT HARD TO SAVE MONEY.  

WHEN TIMES GET REALLY TOUGH, I KNOW GOD IS THERE HOLDING ME UP.  HE IS MY REFUGE. 

MY EARTHLY INSPIRATION COMES FROM MICHAEL, WHO NEVER GIVES UP ON ME, EVEN WHEN I FEEL THERE IS NO HOPE, AND WHO WON'T LET ME GIVE UP.  WITHOUT GOD AS MY GUIDING STAR, AND MICHAEL AS THE WIND BENEATH MY WINGS, I WOULD NOT BE HERE TODAY.  I WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP LONG AGO.  I PRAISE GOD DAILY FOR HIS DIRECTION AND HIS SON, JESUS, AND THANK HIM FOR SENDING MICHAEL INTO MY LIFE TO KEEP MY CHIN AND MY SPIRITS UP. 

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL OF YOU OUT THERE THAT HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR ME.  PRAYER DOES WORK...............  

IN HONOR OF MICHAEL, I PRINT THE SONG HE SINGS TO ME WHEN I AM DOWN AND OUT AND THINK I CANNOT GO ON............................  

Next time you're found with your chin on the ground 
There's a lot to be learned so look around
Just what makes that little ol' ant
Think he'll move that rubber tree plant
Anyone knows an ant can't
Move a rubber tree plant

But he's got high hopes... he's got high hopes

He's got high apple pie in the sky hopes

So any time you're getting low

'Stead of letting go,

Just remember that ant.

Oops there goes another rubber tree plant.
Oops there goes another rubber tree plant.
Oops there goes another rubber tree plant.