NO SLEEP

well, here it is saturday morning, not even noon yet, and here i am at the locust grove library................i got about 2 hours sleep last night.  i can't seem to sleep anymore.  i watched the opening ceremonies for the 2006 olympics and really enjoyed the finale.  but then i couldn't get to sleep.  i have been taking nyquil at night to open up my head and sinuses, and was out of it last night, so took some theraflu instead, and it didn't do much to make me sleep.

i don't sleep well alone.............sigh..............i hate this current situation.........hate it hate it hate it...............

i miss michael when he isn't there.............more than he even knows.............

guess i need to get me a nice bottle of merlot........no, i don't like merlot....um, maybe some cabernet..........no, wait.........i've got it........BOONE'S FARM STRAWBERRY maybe................boy does that bring back my youth!!!!!!!!!!!  i dated a guy back when i was 18 that was 16 and he couldn't buy booze, so, since i could (it was legal back then for 18 year olds to buy booze) i would go in and get a couple of bottles of boone's farm apple or strawberry wine and we would go out to the old atlanta airport (before they fancied it up and renamed it several times) and sit out by the runway and watch the planes take off and land and drink boone's.  that was a hot date for us............hey, i just thought of something.............i have always liked younger men, lol.  i wonder whatever happened to chris...........he was going to new york city last time i talked to him.........and that was almost 25 years ago............

oops, i was going down memory lane there for a minute........i wonder where all the men i dated are now, as well as all the friends i made throughout my life and lost touch with.  i do know where one of my friends is............HEAVEN.  she lost her battle with cancer about 10 or so years ago.  actually she didn't die from the cancer.  she had battled it for some time and then had a bone marrow transplant and was cured.  then, a month after speaking about her survival at a major texas women's convention, she died from complications of the bone marrow transplant.  it was really sad losing her..............but her husband has continued her mission.

well, i guess i better get back to writing my novel and not sitting here reliving the past.