Friday, April 4, 2008

A BITTERSWEET DAY

i was anxious to get today started just to get it over with, since i am off for the next 2 days.  i didn't have to be at work until 10 am, instead of the usual 9 am.  my day was going fairly well.  i didn't have any nasty customers.  i didn't have words with any of my co-workers.  the boss wasn't annoying (jk dm) and it was cloudy and cool on past the noon hour.  sometime around 5:15 pm or so, i looked up and noticed my daughter standing there in the doorway at the front of the store.  i went over and hugged her and told her i had gotten her email and responded.  she said she saw my car in the parking lot and thought she would come by and make sure i got the email and knew the news. 

my daughter, and her boyfriend, are buying a house.  they are waiting for the owners to accept their terms, and if so, they will close toward the end of april.  i told her i was very proud of her.  she is working full time, going to school at night, paying for a late model car, and buying a house. 

she stayed for awhile, talking to some of my co-workers, who she knows from the past, and then, as we closed and started counting the money, she made her exit.

when i got home, she had already sent me an email telling me she accepted my offer of her now deceased papa's dresser that i have been holding for her since she moved out. 

though she held back any emotion, and seemed a bit standoffish, it was good seeing her.  i even left work at 6 pm and went to my old workplace to see if i could find some ivy garlands to help her decorate her new house. 

while at the old job, i talked to michelle, who told me of all the latest news there.  they have done away with the receiving job (which means poor chris isn't needed because it is now done by machines and he was demoted to floor person in the store), they did away with the office specialists (which is what michelle used to be, but she quit that job and went to cashier before they did away with her job).  her list went on and on as to what had changed since i had been gone.  i was shocked.  they close every night with no more than 4 people.  the store was stark, almost sterile.  i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad i am not there anymore.  have i said that before????!!!!

i am connected to the internet tonight via the city wifi, so i am getting a good signal despite the severe thunderstorms we had tonight.  but i am going to close now so that i don't lose this entry.


7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hope this is a start for you and your daughter to be reunited. Paula

Anonymous said...

She misses you even if she won't admit it to herself.  I'm sure you were definitely surprised to see her standing there.  I don't know why she sees fit to treat you like this but my children have done the exact same thing to me.  It will always hurt.  Don't let her treat you like a door mat as she has withdrawn herself from you as her way of punishing you for whatever she feels you have done so wrong and until she sees you've paid enough will she let up.  One day she'll need some mercy and forgiveness but right now, it hurts, I know.  Oh how I know.  

Big hugs,

Nelishia

Anonymous said...

Glad that you have had a good day. What a lovely surprise for you to see your daughter just standing there in the doorway.  My, my, miracles do happen don't they.  It just pays to keep the door open and welcome in whatever/whoever knocks.  It will still be hard and I am sure more shut door days than open...but....one day it will remain open. Till then enjoy each moment and try not to look for the next closed door day with her.  I am happy for you to that you are no longner working in your old place.  Love for now  Sybil x

Anonymous said...

((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))))I am glad you had a good day,I hope you have plenty more good days.I am glad you had a nice susprise frpm your daugter.I know that made you feel good.   :)

Anonymous said...

children grow up and sometimes they don't realize how much they are loved
it is nothing we did but the need in themselves to grow up
don't take it personal if she gives you space one day when you least expect it
you will hear something along the line of gee mom i am sorry
till then love her for the free little girl she is
have a great day and smile
your loved
as always a friend

Anonymous said...

I'm pleased you're in contact with your daughter, Regina, and that things appear to be going fairly civilised. Hope it will only improve from here on.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad that you had the opportunity to see your daughter.  I know that was great for you.  It is promising that she is allowing you to help her out with some furniture.  maybe she is starting to change her mind about some things.

Greg